I Seek Your Presence
Dearest Jesus, I seek Your presence. I remember I had gone through many 3 days of fasting, some 10 days, some 21 days. I have died to myself, just to surrender to Your presence, Father. I had gone through 40 days without food in 2017 March 22 to April 30, another 40 days was in […] Read More
Feeling Weak and Suicidal
Dearest Jesus, I am very weak and have been feeling suicidal. I have no motivation to do things and find it difficult to focus on doing things. I am feeling very traumatized. It is completely different to the time before 2016, when I had dissociated my traumas, I was highly functional and happy. I am […] Read More
The Greatest Desires of My Heart
Dearest Jesus, the greatest desire of my heart is to be able to help as many as possible to be saved and that You would make me a heart of pure gold, that I can dwell near Your altar for an eternity ahead. I would do whatever it takes for it be accomplished. Lord, please […] Read More
Forsaken All to Follow Him
Dearest Jesus, I remember I have been pressing on very hard for purification since 2012 for years on and even have forsaken all to follow you. I have forsaken 5 dolls that I have brought expensively, a baby pillow in which I had held on since birth that I loved so much and even my […] Read More
Feeling Not Good Enough
Dearest Jesus, I am feeling very weak and I need Your strength. Please fill me with Your strength through Your holy spirit. Please guide me throughout the day in You. I continue to cling to Your promise of healing, as I am still feeling very unwell. I feel that I am not good enough, comparing […] Read More
A Purpose in My Disability
Dearest Jesus, I have forsaken everything to follow You, including my hobbies, so that my eyes are only set upon You alone. I have no friends in the world and even those whom I called my own had denied me. I do not have any words, dreams and visions from You, but instead of feeling […] Read More