Dearest Jesus, thank You for knowing me so intimately. My original name was Jessica, but then via traumas, it had fragmented it to Alice, then to Poppy and now Engel. You told me that You use the foolish ones in this world to confound the wise, the outcast of this world as said in Hebrews, whom no one acknowledge. I have been rejected every side, not only by the world, but also those whom I have called them my own. I don’t think anyone would want to attempt to go through my life, these 26 years. I found You fully when I was 16.
I remember I had one of the greatest fiery trials in April 2021 and thank You for not forsaking me. I have been bullied my entire life, from primary to secondary schools and also had been sexually traumatized, three times when I was aged 13, two times aged 20 and one time aged 25. You then see me having a purpose, as a refining vessel to serve You, You told me that it is through my darkness, I then can see Your light greater. I remain full-time disabled from complex traumas, unemployed and Lord, I often wondered what I can do for You, You then told me that You are using my weakness, that in You I am made strong, to glorify You oh Lord Jesus.